As I walk through this process of continuing my own life as a woman with roles as a daughter, a sibling, a mother, a wife and a friend… despite a family member’s death, I see yet another layer of heavy emotions piling on top of my disbelief and sorrow. It’s not that layers are coming off and falling aside. Oh no, the layers that are accumulating, until I can barely breathe. I am finding that I don’t have time to accept or manage or “shake off” the effects of one before the next layer is there, ready to smother me. Continue reading
I don’t know how many parts there will be to this “Grief & Grieving.” Maybe 5, as in the five stages of grief? Who knew it would become a series. Or maybe, if I’m not careful, an endless litany, because I cannot control when the bouts of sadness will hit again full force. Like right now. Nothing “caused” it, and if you’ve experienced the loss of a loved one, you will likely agree with me that there is no inherent cause for grief submerged to suddenly overflow again, Continue reading
Of all the people in my life who have passed away that have been close to me, it has all been from the big C. My guess is that each of us knows at least one person who has suffered from cancer. Some, like a dear cousin of mine and someone else, one of our close friends, fought it and won. Others, like so many of my other friends and family members, have gone to worlds beyond this one after valiant efforts to overcome.
I would like to share my recent journey with you and open up my heart to healing. You, my readers, I know, can surely offer up how you have dealt with grief and in so doing, provide a comforting blanket of words upon to rest my weary thoughts. Continue reading
This week I’m really focused on self-care. It’s something that’s been hit-and-miss, although more miss because I tend to “count” reading ABOUT it as DOING it. After all, I took time for ME to read stuff FOR me. As much as I love to read, reading about how to better myself is not actually making it happen. Reading IS one of my forms of self-care, but there’s a gnawing feeling that this particular piece of reading should not fall into that category. Kind of like… if you read about intimacy but Continue reading